This blog is going to be full of random thoughts....that's just where I'm at today!
Tomorrow morning I re-enter the world of nursing education. I've been off for a month now and it really seems like longer since I was done with this particular class half way through last time. It feels strange knowing I'm entering a whole new class.....I've gotten pretty close to the class I was in. The great thing however is that I have a GREAT group of ladies re-entering with me including my BFF :-) I washed my scrubs, did all my pre-reading and packed my back pack...I'm ready to go!
I'm super nervous about Tuesday however because I have to go into work. I know that it's going to be a rough day after the whole "fighting my unemployment" thing. Sad thing is I was so hurt by the whole situation that I'm actually dreading walking in there. I feel like I see the whole place differently now. I've worked there 9 years and I've grown to feel like they're all members of my extended family until this incident. It just shocked me and I took it very personally. I feel like they thought I was somehow trying to "screw" them by applying for benefits.....when really ALL I'm doing is trying to survive. I have a feeling the only reason they offered me Tuesday is because they were hoping I would turn it down "because of school" and then it would be my CHOICE to leave. I don't know it all feels fishy to me and its very upsetting :(
I have felt terribly sick all day today. I woke up 2 times last night with my knee absolutely ON FIRE. It was this excruciating burning pain that actually had me screaming (not full boar....but I was making noise lol). Then my hip started to burn as well. I still have to do some more research about osteoarthritis because I'm not sure if that's a symptom or not. I know my knee is hurting because it's injured and just getting worse every day I walk around on it "pretending there is nothing wrong" --> as my doctor puts it lol. It was starting to feel a tiny bit better until today. So all this burning pain and aching in my joints has made me a wreck today. I feel like I have no energy what so ever! I was supposed to go over and see Kirk but I didn't make it and that says a lot for me because I usually run over there no matter whats going on to see him. I have to admit I was a little hurt that he didn't come see ME. I do need to address this issue eventually because on days like today when I feel shitty, it would be nice not to spend the day alone. My phone was acting up all day as well so I couldn't even talk to anyone. Its been a shitty, sad day! yuck. Hopefully tomorrow is much better :)
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